Dated: January 4, 2019
Dear Katie,
There is nothing I can say or do to prepare you for the chaos that is about to begin.
I can try though.
You my love, are in for a rough ride. This year will be extremely unfair. This year will throw everything it can at you to see if you will break. I am asking you to hold on. Hold on to yourself. This is going to hurt like hell.
Remember to stay strong my dear. You will battle the hardest fight you have ever had. You will experience the pain of love. Love is pain.
You will want to SCREAM.
You will want to throw things.
You will cry.
You will feel lonely.
You will feel silence.
You will feel guilty.
You will feel targeted.
You will feel isolated.
You will feel the deepest of pain.
You will pray everyday for the pain to leave. This is only the beginning.
Get used to the word sorry because people will use it a lot. You will use it a lot.
Also get used to the word adjust. You will need to adjust.
You will soon learn who is true to your heart and who will save you from your darkest moments, and please hold them close. Please remember to say I love you to those you hold important.
Eat. Remember to eat, it's important. I know your nerves will be shot and you'll forget to take care of yourself.
You will have your heart broken. It will break into a million pieces, come back together and then break again. Try your best to mend even though your trust is gone.
There is better things to come, but you gotta get through this first. The universe is cruel but you will learn to trust it again. You can love again. Take care of yourself. Cry when you need to. Remember to say feelings out loud. You can and will get through this.
Love,
Katie
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