I sit and wonder what my life would be like if things were to go differently.
Maybe simpler, or easier.
Maybe worse.
I believe everything happens to us for a reason.
Certain people are brought into our lives for certain reasons.
People who give us everything or give us nothing.
I ponder about the opposite too. Why are certain people taken from us, and why have some people never crossed paths.
Here are some things that I believe have helped facilitate who I am today
1. My relationship with my family. Yeah growing up sucks and we all go through that phase, but what I always kept important was my family. And we have been through a lot together. I think that these relationships are so vital throughout life and growing up. My family comes before everything and anything.
2. My losses. I've suffered a lot of loss, and loss doesn't mean just death, I will cover this in a different post.
3. Competition. I think a little competition is good for everyone. I swear, if I hadn't competed in dance, I would not have the ambition and drive that I do today. Reality is that life is a competition. My family also had an impact within that, supporting me throughout those years.
4. Understanding that I am not perfection. I never had the perfect hair, clothes, shoes, material things. However, my self love comes from understanding that imperfection is beauty. We love in a world that is so focused on the ideals of what beauty should be. I think it's individual, it's so important to love things about ourselves that make us, us.
5. Learning that I am stronger than I think I am. I am still here and that's something to be proud of.
You continue to grow and nurture yourself in many ways. Doing what inspires you, feeling that spark, that is nurturing. Letting go of toxic people and things. Growing into what gives you beauty. These are only some of the things that have created me, today.
I love the way you write and am so happy you are such a well rounded person for someone so young. You inspire me.